Thursday, January 8, 2009

I don't get these OT commentaries. They all just talking about what they think. I don't think that's enough to make me want to read them.

Okay...

If I were to go back to my studies I would probably do old testament studies. And if I did OT studies I might try to integrate a working understanding of deuterocanonical texts.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Letter to Professor

Father Roch,
I don’t know if you remember me but I was in your Soteriology class last fall (‘07). I did very poorly in your class… I soon came to realize (at that time) that I had no understanding of your standards or your expectations. Perhaps it is a matter of not being exposed to that level of scholarship, or some other reason. I do not know. Based on my work prior to enrolling as UD, I was advised that my work was good and that I would do well at the graduate level of scholarship. I do know that I was not used to working in more than 2 classes at a time (my undergrad at Dallas Christian College was in module form). Looking at all of these factors, even my normal performance was compromised. It didn’t help that I was pregnant at the time, either.
Sir, this is not an excuse or really even an explanation of my performance while in your course. I say these things only to illustrate how unprepared I was for study at the UD level. Even as unprepared as I was, and still am, I do wish to continue at UD. I have faith that God has brought me here to learn the rigors of the discipline, but I am at the mercy of the teachers to show me.
I don’t have the moneys to return to classes right now. But in the meantime I am looking to improve myself where I can, so that I might be better prepared for a second go of things. I know that I need improvement on my writing skills, do you know of anything that I can read to offer insight? While my focus is not on contemporary Christology, I assume that there are essential names in the field of theology that I should be familiar with. I am not Catholic, but do appreciate the Catholic standard in scholarship… are there any other foundational readings that I should be adding to my list? Any additional wisdom that you may like to impart would also be greatly appreciated.
I come to you because you were the worst of my critics. I have sought out all kinds of mentorship in the last decade and have been turned away at every instance because I am a stay-at-home mother and wife and a servant of the faith (these things greatly compromise my ability to socialize with others in the field). However, because of our financial circumstances I will need to go to work at a paying job in the next couple of years and would like to do so in my career. I ask you with full awareness that you may not have the time, and yet I do hope that you have pity on my humble state. I have prayed that God allow me to be satisfied in my situation to be only a wife and mother, and yet it has been a prayer that God has answered with a deeper desire to serve in this field. I thank you deeply now if you do decide to help me in this matter.
Sincerely,
A.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Struggling to be Free from Familial Curses

One of my professors, who was specialized in dead biblical languages (not dead at all!)emphasized the repetative nature of the New Testament's use of the active "overcoming" when talking of perseverence. My children have really shown themselves as sanctifiers of my faith and what it really means to persevere and overcome. In them I can see both the Lord's victories and my own sin as it afflicts them. It is true victory when I can operate outside of my own default system (our cursedness) and enact out of the grace that I have known. Our kids are amazing because they deal with us first with absolute love and grace and only later judge us by the rules we helped lay out. If we can't see how we've hurt God with our sin, then we can look to our children as a measure, as they mature. To those children (as adults) that will judge their parents as perfect, the sin can be seen as the parents not admitting their imperfection, and perhaps this is the worse sin of all in how it damages our children. I say all this because my oldest of five is entering tweenhood, and I am shaking in my boots at the new adventure ahead. I've learned that the hardest things to accept in her are those that I have passed on to her. I hope I can offer some reassurance in saying that it doesn't get any better. Heaven help us.